Choose Your Hard

Photo by Liam Simpson

Anything worth doing is hard.

At first.

Challenging, difficult, annoying, frustrating, seemingly impossible

It may seem as if you are being asked to put your life on the line.

Your mind is saying this is crazy.

Your body is saying this is terrifying.

Your heart somehow knows this is the way.

Anything you do that touches you to your core is pointing to the next level of change and transformation. 

Challenging you in all the exact places that has you questioning who you are and if you are good enough.

Whatever shakes you down is also going to be the catalyst for building you back up, anew.

The shake down is all of the old constructs coming apart for the sake of freedom.

To make this thing that you want to have happen you are doing everything right, good, perfectly and yet all this hard work just throws you back into a cycle of disbelief and resistance.

The resistance you feel is a door.

A lot of times when we find ourselves here we think this isn’t for me.

The secret door that will open you to your deepest desire does not look like the one you’ve been searching for.

Here we freeze, we flee or we fawn.

We say: “No thanks, that doesn’t look like the door I’ve been looking for.”

It’s not the right shape, size, color, texture. 

It’s not the time for me to open that door. 

Who am I to walk through that door?

And usually that exact door will reflect back to you something very intimate and unique about yourself.

The right door will ignite attraction and aversion at once.

What you truly desire you will also fear the most. ⁣
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You fear it because it will bring up everything that stands in the way of the freedom that fully experiencing your desire will give you.⁣

This is when you know you are at the right door, a choice point, moment in time, that is about to grow you into the person you know yourself to be deeper down.

So if you’re wondering is this for me, am I doing this right?! 

I encourage you to stop.

Pause. 

Come back to yourself, to your heart. 

The same one that is breaking open.

Feel that inner door with the palms of your hands.

Breathe. 

Ask: what is deeply true here?

Is it the wrong door?

Is it really that it won’t open?

Or is it actually a part of you inviting you deeper into the truth of who you are?